jenga

I thought taking the long way home again would lead me back to 

places that I recognize 

Who don’t apologize every time 

They mispronounce my name

It’s such a shame

& now I’ve found myself sitting on the ground of the bathroom floor again

Complaining that my general state of life is something less than ten 

Lost a friend

Maybe she’ll come round again

Someday

(Pre-chorus)

Maybe the fast way home would’ve 

taken me where they actually knew my name

Instead I’m swallowing 

reality and my pride 

At least I tried 

(Chorus)

I wish I was the person who I said that I would like to be

Two years ago I said that I’d become no one sarcastically 

Now I’m here

Writing songs that are so far from music that I’d listen to

Cause when you play multiple games of life’s version of tug of war

Things start to come up that I’ve pushed back down some things you can’t ignore 

Never stops

Jenga tower that I’ve built coming down block by block

Metaphoric mountains valleys everything that’s in between

Euphoric feelings couldn’t even comprehend the things I’d seen

Saw my therapist at Kneader’s

Been a while since I’ve seen her

When did life become so complicated in deciding who to be

Magic 8 ball in my hands that’s shaking oh so desperately

I just want some answers

& now my hands hurt

(Pre-chorus)

Maybe the fast way home would’ve 

taken me where they actually knew my name

Instead I’m swallowing 

reality and my pride 

At least I tried

(Chorus)

I wish I was the person who I said that I would like to be

Two years ago I said that I’d become no one sarcastically 

Now I’m here

Writing songs that are so far from music that I’d listen to

Cause when you play multiple games of life’s version of tug of war

Things start to come up that I’ve pushed back down some things you can’t ignore 

Never stops

Jenga tower that I’ve built coming down block by block

(Bridge)

Optimistic

Is it really Realistic 

Just relax

In this Constant state of climax 

I don’t know who to be

(Chorus)